under a read more so i don’t clutter sorry

like i know this sounds dumb and random and some of it is uncalled for and i don’t care but

I never was close to my father as in he LITERALLY wasn’t there for 90% of my life and because of that the only dude in my life was my big brother

so if i had to run to someone it’d be my big brother

someone messing with me? my big brother would scare them off

whole reason im nerdy? my big brother

true facts i wouldn’t even be here today if it wasn’t for my brother, he literally saved my life when i was 4.

and in 2010 my brother moved up to boston and like after nearly 21 years of living in the room next to his he’s suddenly far away and i only get to see him for like a week tops in the entire year and even then its for dragoncon so its only really half a week since he does his own thing

and just when i see pictures of poppop john and jane or just regular john and jane they just look like a brother/sister pair and it just reminds me of my brother who moved and i just get alot of emotions and just sweet babies;;;;;;;;;

like all the things usually depicted like john tossing jane in the air my brother used to do that with me and give me piggy back rides cause he’s like RIDICULOUSLY tall like the tallest in the family and just

the pictures make me so happy while simutaneously missing my brother eihreisi

thats all